a few years ago, i went home to my mother’s province and together with some friends, made a cultural mapping project. it was supposedly a school work – boring it may sound but then, it turned out to be the toughest project we’ve been through that tested our friendship. well, it actually resulted into shocking revelations on the effect of cyanide fishing and POACHING of corals. even the fish species are suffering the effects and it seemed like a domino effect on the other marine life species, too. we found out that there are a lot of local fisher folk who does not have any inkling of the hazards they are introducing to the diverse life of the seas and its nearby environs.

in cebu area alone, authorities are doubling their efforts to stop marine life poaching and export but then again, what’s really sad to note is that, the person on top of the echelon is indifferent and does not seem to care at all!

i just hope somebody will be enlightened and will start the crusade on saving our seas. this is the only planet we have and we can’t expect another chance at survival. if only the entire HUMAN RACE will listen to the silent cries of Mother Nature, then somehow, changes can be reverted…

taken @ Sumilon Bluewater Island Resort Club

AFTERGLOW

Sept. 22, 2010 @ Sumilon Bluewater Island Resort Club Inc., Bancogon Bay Area at 5:37pm.

An afterglow is a broad high arch of whitish or rosy light appearing in the sky due to very fine particles of dust suspended in the high regions of the atmosphere. An afterglow may appear above the highest clouds in the hour of deepening twilight, or reflected from the high snowfields in mountain regions long after sunset. The sunset plays an important role in our life. It is a sole manifestation that after all we’ve been through, at the end of the day, there is a promise that tomorrow will bring new HOPE to tackle life’s adversities and blockades. Each sunset provides us an opportunity to reflect our life and our plans. On the verge of the changing world, with one look at this magnificent afterglow, it gives you the motivation to veer on and achieve the finest things in life. This afterglow also reminds us that it is very important to take the lead in taking care of the environment so that future generations can still enjoy what we are having now. – JLAM

JLAM (Jeane Louise A. Mainit) – A simple individual who is passionate about anything connected to art and music. Loves to read prose and poetry in various media, maintains a personal blog and wanted to be a full pledged global trotter in the coming years. She wanted to connect with nature often and is amazed by how nature itself is an art. She is also calmed by the soothing wind and the tranquility of the ocean during times of pressure and confusion. Basking in the sun at the beach and observing shells and corals are one of her favorite past times.

JLAM graduated Bachelor of Science in Nursing at the University of San Carlos Technological Center [now known as Talamban Campus] in March 2008 and successfully passed the Nursing Licensure Exam done in November 2008.

She joined The Islands Group on December 16, 2010 as a Business Center Staff.

can’t even fathom the reason for all of these… and to top the irony,

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I just need you now.

Oh baby I need you now.

i just wanted to be credited with all the hard work i have and then, at the end of the day, everything is blurry… the lines are easily erased and then i had a hard time maintaining stability and harmony… damn!

i decided to turn on a new leaf… to start back to square one and then to search for my lost self… i miss the old “me”… the one who was carefree and was not feeling any pressure and insecurities… i miss the poet in me…  i miss the real people who knows me inside and out… i miss the times where i can meditate and relax and contemplate…

i decided to turn on a new leaf… to be free from the hurt and the suffering i have inside… to floodgate my emotions so that i can feel the lightness of a healing heart… i cant justify the emotions i felt when i decided to let go of my callcenter job since it taught me how to be tough on everything… but letting it go opened gazillions of opportunities i never imagined i could get! i simply cant get over it now…

but turning another leaf has bought me a good batch of new experiences that i cant forget… i just have to muster enough strength to veer on and be brave enough to utter the words “i have made it without your HELP” but then again i guess that would be unfair for my Windows 7 family as well as my CVG family…

well, in this case, i guess we would just have to learn from all of our mistakes and then move one… i will miss the guys i have been with at CVG… from the trainers to the TLs and down to the agents specially my team mates [both new and old]… i just wanted to express what i feel and what i think now that i have my own space in this corner of the planet.

I never thought that somebody as energetic as she will succumb to cancer. i always thought she will be one good example of somebody who is already contented with life and full of vitality. till one day, we were informed of her cancer. it has been a challenge not only physically but emotionally, spiritually and financially. I guess I just dwell on it too much that I forgot that she is also human. and along with it goes frailty and degeneration.

I just saw all of these happenings on a new light… I can’t get enough of all the sadness that I wasn’t able to flood gate.

Mommy, you will always serve as an inspiration for all of us here. You will remain our example of how to live life fully and how to be always looking into the bright side of things.

Special Memory – Lea Salonga

You will always be a special part of me
You will always be a special memory
I`ll always cherish wonderful moments
You have given me
You are in my heart wherever I may be

All the times we shared will always be to me
Songs my heart will sing refreshing melodies
I`ll put together all of your laughter
Like a symphony
I`ll remember you wherever I may be

(Instrumental)

I`ll put together all of your laughter
Like a symphony
I`ll remember you wherever I may be

I`ll remember you wherever I may be
I`ll remember you wherever I may be

here i am trying to be the most sane person to handle a relationship. here i am trying to be more practical and realistic and provided my significant other all the care and rational understanding i could muster. but then again, he got the nerve to leave me in the middle of nowhere and then just disappeared without further explanations. so stupid of me to believe all the lies… and the downside of it is that i’ve fallen for him — hard.

i cant continue being this NAIVE all along… sometimes i wish i haven’t known him so that i would be spared of this agony… :’(

i promised my self that i will let go of him no matter what the cost is. and i will be victorious in this endeavor. i will!

now i still wanted to continue on making new resolutions for this new year…

to start off, i plan to do the following:

1. read more books and informative blogs

2. cut down on food… in short, go on a DIET!

3. continue to discover places here in the archipelago

well, that’s what i can do for now… meanwhile, i’m having an LSS again… a song from the Phantom of the Opera [courtesy of the cool guys... kenno, micmic, eHo]

From The Phantom of the Opera

Raoul
No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I’m here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I’m here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.

Christine
Say you’ll love me ev’ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that’s all I ask of you.

Raoul
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you’re safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.

Christine
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.

Raoul
Then say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that’s all I ask of you.

Christine
Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Say the word and I will follow you.

Together
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.

Christine
Say you love me…

Raoul
You know I do.

Together
Love me, that’s all I ask of you.

Anywhere you go let me go too

Love me…
that’s all I ask of you.

the intensity of the feeling on the song made me awake with angst on my seemingly boring life… well on the other hand, it made me realize that life should be lived as is one day at a time and don’t hesitate to continue the rhythm that encompasses flow of life.

here is the lyrics of the song and hope that you readers will have the same experience that i have upon hearing it…

VERSE 1:
When the fear sets in
Where the fire burns
Where I find a place
Where there's nowhere to turn
When the evening sings
an eerie song
longing for the day
you say I'm wrong

VERSE 2:
You can find your place
But never fit in
and only when you've left
do you know where you've been
I can see the light
but only when it's gone
You can go on waiting
But only for so long (so long, so long)

CHORUS:
I know we are right
It's not always clear
because I've never felt the fear
Can it stay so good
forever in time?
I've always felt the rhythm
What happens when
there's no more rhyme?

VERSE 3:
Can we face ourselves
like we face each other?
We've never felt anything
on our own
I can't wait much longer
to feel any danger
I hope we're not living for
a lifetime alone

CHORUS

BRIDGE:
Hard to go on
It's like waiting for
the other shoe to drop
I'll never stop
believing in you
It's just we never had to struggle
It all came too easy
I hope we felt what we felt from the start
We've never suffered a broken heart
We've been so blinded by all the best
We never put our love to the test (to the test)

I've always felt the rhythm
What happens when
there's no more rhyme?

i may sound melodramatic here but the point is, i’ve never made such a big decision in my entire life that i was just proud of myself for accomplishing it…

i’m just happy of feeling so good after so many months…its like the first time i got my call center job as TSR…nonetheless, im just plain happy…

i hope this euphoria won’t stop and hinder me to seek  more avenues for self improvement…i would start to live up to the motto of OutThinking… OutDoing…